we have nowhere to go

He sits night after night. On the computer, phone, tv. I cook or clean, take the kids to their activities, do the laundry, scrub the floors, do the dishes. My existence is minimal at best. I am nothing to him. He considers it more important to see me wearing down, dying in chores, than to stand up and do his share.

I pay for food. about 350.00 a month
cable 120.00
phone 120.00
gas 120
electric 120
trash 15
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He says he only has to pay for himself, he is only him, hes not part of a blended family. He's just him. A bachelor living in a pretend bachelor world. There isn't any evidence of a marriage even save a 24 hour honeymooon and a couple of rings. Nothing changed.

He would rather see me wear out as an unhappy tired, exhausted, sad outcast kinda girl than change one thing.

I know he doesn't want me anymore.

I am so sad.

I should just end it all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!