Now

I gave him a week of vacation, a week and a half with his kids (the most time he has spent with them in a row since Sandy kicked him out) and we got along fairly well. We get back home and he becomes very sad, down, and tells me he is extremely unhappy. Everything seems terrible to him. Rather than being glad that and happy that he spent an intensive 1 1/2 weeks with his kids (something I guarantee he never did before) and being grateful to me for making it happen, he is merely rolling around in the sadness that he doesn't live in the house with Sandy anymore.

He will not be happy until he is away from me and living in Cincinnati. He will either move back in the home he owns with HER and get with her again or live somewhere else. Either way, even if he sees his kids less than he does now, he will be happier.

He will be happier just because he will think he is close to the kids even if he doesn't see them. It will cost him way more than $425 to live there, to live without me, but he won't care. He will think it is better all around.

I love him and have enjoyed getting along with him the last week or two but despite that he is less happyt.

I feel so hopeless and sick.