Monday, December 06, 2010

Monday, Dec. 6

This weekend was bad.  I was lonely and I felt so sad.   I cried a lot.  I am crying still, right now.   I hadn't heard anything from him in 2 weeks or more and then I got a brief email asking me to hurry up and get the divorce done.

It made me so upset.   I know without a doubt that he is seeing somebody else or it wouldn't be a priority.

He was married to someone else for years and wouldn't do anything to get divorced, and it nearly killed me.  

He is such a jerk.  I know he definately doesn't love me now but I don't think he ever did.  

I imagine when he gets the decree around Christmas, he and his new lover will celebrate and then make fun of me and my sorrow....
Please God let me HATE him, please, take away all good feelings.  

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