Finally talked

He called me tonight at 1:00 a.m.   He told me that he realized that our views on parenting and money were just so far apart we would never have worked.   He told me that he was right and if I had let him interact with the kids however he wanted, things would have been fine.  Never mind that I mostly paid for everything, but that's beside the point.

I asked him, do you mean that you didn't even speak to the girls day after day because "I wouldn't let you interact the way you wanted?"   (He didn't interact at all)

He said he wasn't getting into that, it had all been argued and I was wrong about it all.

He said to give him a time and he would call me again when I wasn't so tired.   I told him several times that I loved him.

He finally said, "I told you I would always love you".

He said we would never have worked, our views were too far apart.

I asked him if that meant we were done and he said "don't put that on me".  I said no, the ball is in your court.  He wouldn't answer. 

He just said there wasn't anything more to say, it had all been said.   I asked him if that meant that he wanted me to mail him divorce papers and he said, yes, that is what it means.

How do I feel?   Sad, lonely, lost.  Unloved.  Scared.