HE SAYS HE DOESN'T FIT.

On Monday, I worked a full day, took care of Camille, went to the grocery, and then had to come home and prepare food for Tammy Jo's. I was already tired when I got home, particularly because I had worked much of the weekend with the henna booth. Jerry had elected not to have anything to do with me Friday, it was too much trouble for him to drive 20 miles to see me any.

I was on my feet until 1 a.m. while Jerry got home at 5:30 yet played on the computer, watched TV, talked on the phone, and did his usual habitat things. He didn't help me for one second. He couldn't be interrupted rom his play to help me ANY. NOT ANY. I was so freaking tired. I had to help Camille with her homework and read to her and get her in bed. While I was spinning my wheels, going 1,000 mph doing all of this, he was trying to get my attention too, wanting more from me, rather than giving one tiny DAMN ABOUT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are such a stupid idiot Lisa.

Days went by when he didn't look at me or have anything to do with me.

He made no apologies for ignoring me and not helping me Monday.

Nothing.

He just played and slept as usual. Didn't ask me ONE DAMN THING. He used me to talk about his day and stuff but gave me nothing.

Days went by without anything.

I got tired of it and I said I want a partner. I asked him why he doesn't want to be my partner. HE SAID HE DOESNT' FIT. He doesn't fit me enough to be my partner. He has no guilt toward me. He is fine with letting me pay most of the bills, letting me take care of my kids alone 100%, never interacting with them, only occasionally interacting with me. He is fine with spending 6 hours in the evening playing while he leaves all the responsibilities to me.

WHEN I ASK HIM TO DO MORE, TO DO SOMETHING, HE SAYS HE DOESN'T FIT.

I GUESS HE ONLY WANTS HIS REAL WIFE SANDY.

I HATE HER BECAUSE HE THINKS HE FIT HER.