• I don't know how I can go on.
• I don't know how I can stop crying.
• I don't know how I can sleep.
• I don't know how I can act normal when inside I am screaming.
• I don't know how I can take of two children alone when I hurt so bad.
• I don't know how I can life my life without you.
• I don't know how I can get up in the morning.
• I don't know how I can argue my case tomorrow.
• I don't know how I can hold my life together.
• I don't know how I can ever care about myself again.

I don't know how you can tell me you love me and then say "I can't marry you because I would betray my kids.

I don't know how you can tell me you want me and then tell me you need an indefinte time away from me because you have hurt me.

I don't know how you can keep hurting me like this when you promised me you wouldn't.

I don't know how you can tell me you love me the same way I love you.

You heard me sob so hard I couldn't breathe and you responded with nothingness.

I am having one of the hardest times in my life:

• my father's illness
• my work and my fathers
• your lack of love and wanting for me
• such pain I want to die
• no sleep
• my eyes are red, swollen
• I hurt so bad
• Chloe's birthday
• Chloe's dance
• Getting me and two little kids alone to Florida and back because you chose a life without me.
• feeling like no one in the world cares or loves me
• I wish I had to courage to die.
• All the Karst O Rama stuff
• I am responsible for getting all the volunteers for the rkc booth
• I am responsible for the kids activities at kor
• Did you do anything at all to help me with any of this
• My grass needed cutting with you last stayed with me. You sat on your rear and brooded for days (after I had apologized repeatedly). You sat there while I cleaned. Now I have to cut the grass.
• I am ill I am so hurt by you.
• Why can't you care about me for once? Why can't you love me?

WHY DOESN'T ANYONE CARE WHETHER I LIVE OR DIE

WHY DON'T YOU CARE ABOUT ME