I don't think you read this anymore. I know you haven't posted for a long time. I felt sad today because you talked about going back to work. It reminded me how far your "comfort" period is from where I thought we were headed.

During your comfort period you don't talk about us having a future together too much and you haven't mentioned marriage in any way at all. I felt blue when you told me that Chris bought Tara an engagement ring. At the end of your comfort time, I still don't know what would happen. All you would say is then you would probably move in with me and the rest was washed out with a wave of ambiguity. On April 1 you said you had a job and would move in a couple of weeks. I mentioned marriage which is the thing you do when you love someone but you say you can't marry me which tore me into a million pieces.

The next thing I know you say you don't know me, you can't think straight and now you need months and months of comfort time before anything can happen with us. (It feels like maybe you thought you stopped loving me and you need this stalled time so you can decide if it is really true so you can dump me on your own terms). You say need this stalled relationship (after I was hurt really bad) comfort time so that you can....(I really don't know)....remind yourself of something.

At the end of your months and months of comfort time, we will be right back where we started. So by me mentioning marriage, all that happened was you got 6 more months of putting me off in every way.

I felt very sad today and you said your comfort time was over. I just felt sad. This may be what you want.......more of this long distance relationship, but I wanted what most people want when they are in love. I think maybe we really do feel differently about each other.