Oh, Jerry I love you so

I love you so very much. Yes, I need you. Yes, I want you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want this more than I have ever wanted anything. But -- I've wanted it for so long and my love, longing, and lust for you have gotten me no closer to a life with you. I need to know when you plan to commit to be with me. (I don't mean "commitment" as in marriage necessarily. I don't even dare to hope for that.) I don't know if I can make it though unless you can give me something to count on. You know how hard this has been for me. You have choices and so far you have chosen not to be with me. How much longer will you not choose me? If you can't love, tell me so.